Not So Fast

There was a time when I wouldn't miss posting no matter what. My vacation and ensuing blog disruption cured me of that, but I would like to get back to writing every day again. There's just so much going on! Yesterday and today have not been great examples of a lot going on; I've been fasting as part of my 30-day program, and I don't have a lot of energy. I'm drinking some disgusting brown gunk four times a day. I'm kind of surprised that I've been able to stick to it, but I've stayed strictly on the program since starting on Monday. Tomorrow I will weigh and measure for the first time since beginning, and part of me is afraid. I feel like I've lost pounds and inches, but I'll be devastated if I've done all of this and see no results. Yes, I know it's only been a week and I still have three weeks to go. But this is really hard! I had to stop taking one of the supplements because it made me jittery. My program coach said it shouldn't, it's all natural. I said, "Peyote is all natural too, but I wouldn't take that either." She laughed. She thinks I'm hilarious.

Joking aside, I don't feel so hot. Tomorrow I will get back to two shakes a day and one real meal. I'm sure I'll feel better then. And I don't want to sound like I'm crying about it. I'm making a choice to starve myself in the form of a "deep cleanse", so I'm not looking for sympathy. I am looking for a way to kickstart weight loss and be healthier. If that means a few days of feeling tired and drinking icky drinks, it's worth it. I'll do my big (I hope) reveal tomorrow about how much weight/how many inches I've lost.