Irritable Syndrome

None of my body parts is irritable; I'm just irritated and I don't know why. My doctor said something a few months ago about "menopausal mood swings" and I almost punched, proving his point I suppose. I am, at this point, post-menopausal and I'm not sure how long such things continue. I do take a hormone replacement pill, so maybe I'm just prolonging the problem. I do feel like I'm PMSing, but it's been several years since I "M"ed.

Regardless of the reason, I just want to hit something and/or crawl through my skin. I'm not happy about how long my insurance is taking to pay -- partly my fault because I let that issue go while trying to have fun with my family. My kitchen demolition begins on Monday (I may have already mentioned that) and I have to pay up front to stay in a hotel while the mold is removed. My insurance will pay me back for any costs I incur, but I still have to pay for the room and any meals. I don't want to pay up front! Getting my paycheck two weeks later than I was supposed to really messed up this month's budgeting, and all the outlay for the repairs is not helping.

I could go on a major bitchfest if I let myself. Instead I will remind myself that I'm fortunate to have a way to shell out the money in advance, to have my youngest son visiting for a few days and taking my little dog home with him, to have a friend to meet early tomorrow for our weekly beach walk, and many other wonderful things that I'm always aware of but sometimes allow to be overshadowed by situations that are annoying in the moment. For the rest of this evening, I'm going to do some gentle yoga, take a warm bath, and forget about the kitchen until tomorrow -- and remind myself of my many blessings.