"Better Than Normal"

So I'm home, and that in itself makes me feel better. This morning, the doctors did a heart catheter test -- not pleasant but not horribly painful. Because they went in through an artery in my groin area, I'm pretty sore. That's okay; I'm supposed to take it easy for a few days anyway. Other than catching up on work, there's nothing pressing I need to do. It turned out that my cath test showed my arteries to be better than normal, at 65%. I know that doesn't sound like it would be better than normal, but the doctor said 50-60% is the normal range, and they worry when it's below 30%.

The upside is that I'm finding out what isn't my problem, but I would also like to find out what is. This particular episode seems to have been induced by the new medication I was given on Monday. [I left with a new version, which will hopefully address the blood pressure issue without causing "bad things". My head had been "spinny" all week, and maybe I shouldn't have gone out yesterday. I felt bad but not awful, and I wanted to go to my appointment. One thing I will say is that if the whole thing had to happen, I was glad to be in the company of someone who I know cares about me and my safety. She said something to the paramedics along the lines of, "We're family," and I feel that way too. It's weird when you have someone in your life who, because of the context of your relationship, you can't completely express how much you care for that person and how grateful you are to have her in your life. That may not make sense (to anyone but her). And I think she knows how much I appreciate her kindness and concern, not just in this situation but always. (I'm getting a little teary as I type this.)

My sons stepped up big-time, and I know they were worried. I never want to worry anyone. My cousin left me a message which I've not been able to return yet because my phone died; when I left the house yesterday, I expected to come home yesterday. I don't usually take my charger with me when I'm just going out for a few hours. I've dealt with most of my work stuff in the hour or so since I got home. Now I am going to rest. Everything else can wait until tomorrow.